So I have been having/almost having panic attacks, I am still on my meds but I dont think they are working as good. Maybe I should see if I can up the dose?
I am trying to save money to go on another vacation. Right now I am broke as frak I have like $100 total in the bank which isn’t good because bills and crap are coming.
I’m mad at myself because I don’t think I will be able to go to california in december. When I was in 7th grade I made a promise to myself that the day that the world is going to “end” I would be in california. Well first off I don’t have the money, 2nd i requested the wrong day. Apparently its the 21st and I requested off the 12th. Also in the request book it has from like the 19th and on blocked off so you have to get permission to have those days off which they are going to think that is a stupid reason to have the day off. :(
But we all know that the world is NOT going to end so I guess I can just start saving up for another vacation next year. I wanna to go NY and Vegas again. But I also want to go to Florida. I don’t know we will see, which ever is less money. I also wanna talk to my bestfriend about doing a 24 hour trip to Vegas. Just go out for like 24 hours, no hotel just amusement park rides and drinks and stuff. We will see.
But I am disapointed that I can’t even keep a promise to myself. I fail at everything.